Rain

Ahh… it’s raining right now. I like it when it rains at night. It gives me this huge urge to crawl into my bed and sleep. But somehow, the rain gives me this neutral feeling and all i want to do is listen to some good ol’ rock ballads to soothe the mood and just stare out my window.

just merely upset about things.

Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.

Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.

Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.

Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.

Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.

Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.

Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.

Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.

Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.

Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.

Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed.Depressed

What I’m feeling now, It’s definitely sorrow

You seem to be the only star i can't seem to reach

I find myself to be a bit lost lately. I don’t know what exactly is this that i am feeling. It feels neutral at the same time it feels like i’ve given up on all and decided to actually let things go out of hand and just stand still and watch. Not a slightest feel of anything.

PMR

one month to my major exam that will pretty much decide my future. fuck this. reasons why i hate about being asian. education seems to be everything. Why is it that i have to be a doctor or a lawyer to be happy? I’m not diving for the money. I want to enjoy what i do, even if it means walking around with my guitar and sing on the streets.

Why?

What is happiness like? I can’t remember that feeling and that rush of excitement i used to feel and get from all of this. Now it’s all nothing but sad. I’m so sad. Why?

My thoughts are going to kill me one day